Yesterday I turned 38. I had a great time preparing a wonderful cake and a yummy feast. I got a gazillion messages on my facebook page from people loving on me. My children started the day out with a snuggle, and gave me a gift certificate for free massages from their very own massage company. I got flowers and a lovely card from my best friend and my parents got me a bright, sunny new quilt to snuggle under during the winter.
It was a wonderful day.
Today I spent cleaning for the upcoming social party. I put a little electric fireplace in my attic room and reorganized to accommodate it. Now I have a bright cozy room with a fireplace, lovely quilts, and a cat. It’s hard not to love it here. I feel truly at home for the first time in a long time. I feel like I can settle in, get comfortable, and relax for the first time in years.
Tonight I will see many friends and loved ones. I will eat too many cupcakes and drink a little too much wine and love every minute of it. The feelings of being unloved and unwanted have been driven out by love, snuggles, and laughter. I am hoping with all the rearranging, it will be harder for them to find purchase when they try to return.
* Thank you to Danno for the 19 again pun.