I feel 19 again.*

Yesterday I turned 38.  I had a great time preparing a wonderful cake and a yummy feast.  I got a gazillion messages on my facebook page from people loving on me.  My children started the day out with a snuggle, and gave me a gift certificate for free massages from their very own massage company.  I got flowers and a lovely card from my best friend and my parents got me a bright, sunny new quilt to snuggle under during the winter.  

It was a wonderful day. 

Today I spent cleaning for the upcoming social party.  I put a little electric fireplace in my attic room and reorganized to accommodate it.  Now I have a bright cozy room with a fireplace, lovely quilts, and a cat.  It’s hard not to love it here.  I feel truly at home for the first time in a long time.  I feel like I can settle in, get comfortable, and relax for the first time in years.  

Tonight I will see many friends and loved ones.  I will eat too many cupcakes and drink a little too much wine and love every minute of it.  The feelings of being unloved and unwanted have been driven out by love, snuggles, and laughter.  I am hoping with all the rearranging, it will be harder for them to find purchase when they try to return. 

* Thank you to Danno for the 19 again pun. 

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