Creative flow is one of the methods I use to distract from pain.
Yes, I know, I also would have punched someone in the stomach had they told me to distract from my pain with meditation or art or anything other than pain killers but then I learned I had a disease that didn’t respond very well to pain killers so, I had to try.
Turns out the brain is REALLY good at distracting itself from pain, so who knew?
So when I hurt badly enough that I can’t “normal” but not so badly that I am utterly flattened I turn to paints and paper to create myself some pain control.
Lately I have been using acrylic paint pens with brush tips. Here are some of my recent creations:
If you have a chronic illness you know how often a doctor asks you to keep track of your symptoms, medication side effects, diet, exercise, lifestyle changes, etc.
I have always hated it. I find it boring and depressing. Focusing on my symptoms reminds me I am sick, focusing on my pain makes it hurt more. So I have been really bad at it. Which doesn’t help the doctors do their job better.
So I am designing chronic pain journals that have useful, interesting, or engaging elements to them and selling them on Amazon.
My first is filled with haiku I have written over the years I have been dealing with these diseases. I designed it to commiserate, uplift, and ideally make you feel less alone.
The second I designed is a chronic pain management coloring book journal, so that keeping track of all this stuff isn’t as boring. It has a floral theme.
I’m designing other journals as well, because I am stuck inside a lot and bored and creating things makes the time pass more swiftly. You can visit my author page every now and then to see what I’ve done.
if your body is convinced the world is trying to kill you all the time.
I am more than 16 years into my chronic pain journey. In that 16 years I haven’t gone a day without a headache or pain somewhere in my body, usually both. I’ve spent a fortune visiting the country’s most knowledgable doctors, having the most in depth tests, and trying the most outlandish treatments. I have tried all the drugs, including Ketamine Infusions, and I have done all the botox.
What I discovered was this; Pain killers don’t work with neuropathic problems. They just add fatigue, confusion, constipation, and eventually addiction to the problems I am already facing. They also impair my ability to drive and make decisions. There are medications that will bring neurological symptoms to a dull roar, but there aren’t any that will make it go away. Medicine isn’t there yet. So what the eff does give me a break from the unceasing pain coursing through my body?
ART.
Making any creative thing really. Fine art, crochet, designing stickers online, making miniature gnome habitat parts, it really doesn’t matter as long as I am losing myself in the process of creation or – as the artists lovingly call it – the flow.
See the little watermelons on the right of the bamboo decking? I painted acorns I found on my walk with paint pens. Not fine art but it sure was a fine pain distraction. See the shiny sparkly thing on the left of the house? Beads, wire, and several hours distraction from pain. (I made 5.)
I have created art my whole life, whether through singing and dancing or painting and writing, whether for myself or for profit, and I can tell you the meditative deep dive your brain goes through when you start making something, is the best pain break on earth.
One of the heartbreaking things I have discovered in my time as an artist is most people believe they cannot create art. Our culture has monetized everything to the point that we all believe we can’t do something unless we can do it to the level of selling it. When it comes to the creation of art, we are selling ourselves short. Humans have been creating art since we’ve been around. There are cave paintings from our earliest ancestors. Our very existence on this earth has grown up with art and the process of creating things and expressing things through music or sculpture or drawing or anything is deeply rooted in our brains. We benefit so much from making things. Any things.
This “Little Free Gnome Stuphs” library I made day before yesterday took me 5 hours. I was in a horrible pain state in the morning so I brought out a glue gun and some popsicle sticks and a YouTube tutorial and as I worked my body began to relax. My pain eased.
I devoted more than half a day to making that tiny popsicle stick library for neighborhood children to open and take gifts out of. It is not something to sell on Etsy or to hang in a gallery but it was fun and meditative AND very effective pain control. It will not solve the crisis in the Middle East, or earn some art dealer a giant commission. It did give me several hours of lessened pain and made at least one little girl smile as she took a trinket out of it on her walk this morning.
Now, if you had told me in year five, or seven, or even nine of this horrible chronic pain journey that I would be controlling my pain with popsicle sticks and glue I would have shoved some choice words up your ass and moved on to my next doctors appointment. I am in no way telling you to stop getting treatments or taking medications. I am simply suggesting you also pick up a coloring book and some pens and see if you get a bit of a break from the eternal weight of chronic illness with an art project.
Being a sarcastic person I am a fan of this stripe of coloring book. You can get your art zen on and swear a blue streak at the exact same time. The important thing is to find the flow.
My flow has been very Gnome Garden directed lately. I’ve made a well, tiny produce, repurposed various jewelry pieces for decor, and created a little village under my juniper bush for the folk. I even treated myself to a few pre-made solar houses that light up, though I did repaint some of them.
I’m not sure what my next art project will be but I know there will be one. It’s a vital to my continued existence on this planet as my PT and my cold plunge.
Managing life with chronic illness requires savvy spoons
