A whole lotta love…

The closer I get to returning home the harder it gets to go. I never thought I would say this but New Jersey isn’t such a bad place to be. Maybe it’s the people, maybe it’s the proximity to NYC, but being here doesn’t have the sting it used to.

Tonight I went to see Sex in the City with Ellen and Tiff. We had dinner, drinks, a fantastic movie about love, and lots of laughter.

On the way home I thought about family. How lucky am I that I have people I love so much, both here and back in Colorado? In the past two years I have found this amazing group of people I can call my own. Some of them came here with me, and our bonds were strengthened in the move, but some of them are new to my heart. These people love me when I am noisy and obnoxious, forgive me when I hermit away in my house for days on end, and are willing to overlook the fact that I wore cheap high heeled red flip-flops to go see a movie filled with Manolos.

I am sad that returning home means leaving… home. In the not too distant future I will not be a train ride away from Broadway. I will no longer go down the shore. I won’t here people say “whattaya gonna do?” and “fahgeddabowdit”. I won’t go berry picking with the Moms Club or shopping at Wegman’s. No around me will know what a pork roll is. There will be no more super fresh fish, and no more Sunday gelato. Everyone will think I am the pushy asshole when I get behind the wheel of my car.

Living on the East coast is all about surviving on the East coast. No one meanders through life here. It’s rush, and push, and get the fuck outta my way you stupid ass what on earth do you think you are doing!! It’s an attitude I have learned and adopted through two years in one of the most populated States in our nation. I have found the checker at the Wegman’s who will sneak me into the express lane, the waiter who will pour me the strongest drink, and great friends.

Somehow, out here in the last place I ever wanted to be, I found a whole lotta love.

Leaving is going to break my heart.

7 thoughts on “A whole lotta love…”

  1. Shawn and I lived in Maryland for 3 years…. which isn’t the same as NJ, but it counts as the East Coast, I’d say. I definitely get the “attitude” and I must say, I don’t miss it. But the history… the beauty… the ocean… those things you don’t find everywhere else.

    But where my “home” is Indiana, where the only thing to look forward to is spending time with family, you have a beautiful home to come back to, with family, friends, and everything else Colorado has to offer.

    It’s never easy to leave ~ I’m sure NJ will miss you as much as CO did when you left two years ago!! But I imagine you won’t look back too often.

    Wasn’t SATC a great movie?? 🙂

  2. OMG it was a fantastic movie!! I am so glad they made it!!

    I would go see it again, but I am afraid it might just be an excuse to drink too many cosmo’s.

  3. I loved the movie. 🙂 I definitely want to see it again. I’ve seen every episode at least 3 or 4 times…

    I find it’s always hard to leave a place, especially when I’ve developed ties. I found it especially hard to leave NYC and I was only there a week. 🙂

  4. I knew you moved sites but neglected to update my feed reader. I’ve been wondering where you were. And all along, here you were … just not in my feed reader 🙂

    Home it what you make it. And now you’ve experienced that – you had to make “home” where you had never been before. It’ll make you ever more grateful to this home when you return.

    As for that drink … yeah I’ll have one for you. What do fancy east coasters like?

  5. Bring it on! Can’t wait to experience some east coast attitude fresh from the east :).

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