I went to bed at 10 pm last night, because it had been dark for 5 and a half hours already and my body was convinced it was hours past my bedtime. It is so dreary here when it is dark by 4:30 p.m. I mean come on! When am I supposed to get some sun? 4 a.m.?

I have to apply for the bar this week. Uck. Then of course I have to study for, and then take the bar. Sigh. I had hoped this madness was behind me. I passed! I shouldn’t have to do this again. Damn it Husband!! Damn it land of opportunity!! Curse you New Jersey and your refusal to accept MBE scores. Le Sigh.

So, here I go again, into the land of madness. The land of no sleep, and late hours and hallucinations…. no I do mean the bar prep, I know it will not be altogether different from the first few months of baby no 2’s life.

Speaking of babies…

We were watching Parenthood the other night. I had forgotten how much I love that movie. Interestingly, it is one of the few movies that grow with you. I loved it when I was younger, but I thought the parents were funny and I totally sympathized with the children. Now, I get it!! I understand the imaginary scenes in Steve Martin’s head when he is thinking of his kid’s future! I understand the parent stuff, I sympathize with them! I suggest watching it as a new parent, so you can see it from a whole new vantage point.

We were watching the part in the end when Grandma comes into the dining room and begins to tell Steve Martin and his wife, Mary Steenburgen, all about the roller coaster. “You know, when I was nineteen, Grandpa took me on a roller coaster… I always wanted to go again. You know, it was just so interesting to me that a ride could make me so frightened, so scared, so sick, so excited, and so thrilled all together! Some didn’t like it. They went on the merry-go-round. That just goes around. Nothing. I like the roller coaster. You get more out of it.”

Inspired, I turned to hubby and said “I like the roller coaster too.” He turned back and said “Sometimes its a little messy for me.” We watched the rest of the movie, the next scene they are at a play for their daughter and their son runs up to protect his sister and knocks over the sets, the camera starts to act like a roller coaster. Steve Martin’s character looks a little sick, Mary Steenburgen is smiling and laughing. It was like watching the two of us, me loving the rollercoaster, him finding it a bit messy.

I guess this year has been all rollercoaster, and really, all the downhill, scary, twisty parts. We are looking forward to some of the uphill, slow, breathers that usually come with these rides, but I am not seeing an end to the careening any time soon. Maybe there is something to be said for the merry-go-round, at least every once in a while.

2 days until we find out the sex of the next member of our family!